I mean come on though!! This is so true right? Why is it that we get so motivated to diet and eat healthy, we go stock up on fresh groceries, clean out the pantry and the fridge to the point where others in your house may starve because you know they aren’t going to eat what you just bought!

So now we’re ready to diet! We are really doing it this time!! Wink, wink. You pre-plan meals and food prep on Sunday night, it’s literally all planned out! Monday goes great! You’ve got this! Tuesday starts off great, you got your water in this morning, no snacking and we’ve made it to lunch! Lunch rolls around, you pull out your salad, or meat and veggies, and the person to your right pulls out their homemade pizza from the night before, then the person across from you pulls out their leftovers from that great steakhouse you love!! Focus… you brought your salad, eat it and be good!

Now it’s supper time at home, you make your healthy casserole that nobody wants to eat but you and your husband because he’s trying to be supportive. After supper you happen to spot that small bag of chocolate that you were given and think, it’s not much, I’ll eat this and get back on track tomorrow. Yum!!

Wednesday starts off good! Good breakfast, hit your water goal this morning! Lunch is great, left over casserole from last night then a co-worker brings in cookies to share and we’ve done good so far this week so I’ll celebrate and have a cookie then be good the rest of the day! The one cookie turns in to two cookies, then you get home, supper goes as planned, then the chocolate is calling your name again from the pantry. Thursday rolls around and breakfast and lunch go well, but not so much the rest of the day. Then Friday and Saturday are shot and Sunday you are trying to get back on track again Monday.

Is it just me or is this what happens to everyone? I’ll be honest! Last year at this time I was 50lbs thinner. My husband and I took a long awaited trip to Jamaica and I was more that motivated to lose the 25lbs to hit my goal. Then we got back, I kept it off for awhile and slowly it crept back on, and by slowly, I mean in 3 months I gained back the 25lbs I lost plus 25 more!! (Face palm) . I’m in my late 30’s now and the heaviest I have ever been. I used to meet with a nutritionist and that helped me lose the first 25lbs but she can only give me the tools to use . I am the one that has to actually use them. So why can’t I stay motivated throughout the week? My kids are older, I’m not as “needed” by them anymore. I have time to go to the gym and workout but I find things around the house to fill that time. I mean, there is always something at home to be done right? Why can’t I figure out how to balance out my life? I feel like if I make time to eat right and exercise, I drop the ball somewhere else like, keeping the house clean. I like to come home to a clean house! It makes me proud and feeling accomplished. Then if I spend the time cleaning the house and feeling all accomplished, I don’t have time to go to the gym and when I’m done cleaning I just want to sit down and eat ice cream for my job well done!

I feel like there has to be a balance somewhere and I haven’t found it yet! Maybe by the time I’m in my 50’s I’ll have found it. Is it so bad of me to want to just enjoy my life right now. Enjoy the season my kids are in, maintaining my sanity, enjoying the time I have left with my kids before they are off on their own living their own lives. I’m slowly trying to be ok with where I am at in this season of life, learning how to love the body I’m in right now and learning to be ok with it.

Why is it that women feel so pressured to be a certain weight? Let’s just be happy with how hard we are trying and send some kind vibes out to all the women that are trying to keep their sanity and lives in order! We don’t know what anyone else is going through, so maybe instead of making others feel like they are not the “right size” let’s make them feel amazing where they are at right now! Lift up that crown! I saw this quote recently and thought I’d share it:

Everyone’s failing at something:

“I wish more women realized that helping another woman win, cheering her on, praying for her, or sharing a resource with her, does not take away from the blessings coming to them. In fact, the more you give the more you receive. Empowering women doesn’t come from selfishness, but from selflessness. ” – Selene Kinder